Newlyweds: The First Year

Do you all even know my love for "reality" television? In some ways, I am quite embarrassed of it, but in other ways I don't even care that much, anyways what you think.

My newest obsession? Newlyweds: The First Year on Bravo. I love it and hate it and cannot.stop.watching.

As the title suggests, the show is about newlyweds. Four couples to be exact. Four very different couples. Two of the four couples had never lived together before marriage, and one couple were engaged and married only six months in. The last couple, my favorite, a same sex couple seem the most functional of the four couples, so far anyways. I mean it is Bravo, after all, they may turn out to be crazy at some point.

But what draws me to this new show is the struggles and challenges these couples all face. When I first started blogging as "Newlywed Nichole", I shared some issues Jason and I had. We still have some of those issues. I think we always will but how we handle them is what has changed {for the most part}.

I feel like a traditional marriage isn't what it used to be. I say that and surprisingly I had a pretty traditional courtship with Jason, but I also wasn't looking for it, nor did I ever expect to get married so there ya go. It comes when you're not looking for it, I suppose?

This past weekend, while Jason and I had a lot of fun in Orlando, we also got into a pretty big argument Friday night. It was a huge misunderstanding and it had been ages since we had a fight like that. I hated it and at some point we both kind of just walked away from it. We weren't getting anywhere and our issues will not all be settled overnight.

So anyways, this show, Newlyweds. I started watching it this week {now that Jason is back in school and I have time to be a bum, but I digress} right after getting over our argument and it brought me back a bit to the newlywed days for the Crews'.

Jason and I had both been and are still quite independent people. I am definitely an emotionally needy person {I like to think I am also pretty self aware too; trust me I know how I can be} at times and mostly my husband does a good job at calming his high strung crazy ass wife. Sometimes I worry that I will lose myself in my marriage. I think even after two years that is normal when you share your life with someone. And while my husband doesn't say it, I wonder if he thinks the same for himself because at times we both can be so damn stubborn.

I hope for these new newlyweds, they can sort out their first year issues and get through it. Jason and I have, and even with our differences, the good always outweighs the bad. And there is no one else I would ever want to fight with {and make up, rawr} than the guy I met at happy hour six years ago...