Tuesday, December 4, 2012

perspective

It's no secret I have been in a FUNK for the better part of this year. I'll spare ya'll the reiteration but some days I have been able to snap out of it and other days not so much.

A lot of it has to do with my weight. I hate hate hate the way I look...

A lot of it has to do with my job. While things have gotten better, this new job puts me way back on the bottom of the "totem pole" and I don't know if I should seek greener pastures or suck it up until I can transfer departments.

A lot of it has to do with the fact that I never get to see my husband, since we both work and he has class at night.

A lot, a lot, A LOT. I could legit go on and on {and on}.

...Then I read this story from Mama Laughlin's blog and I cried. Big, fat dramatic tears. I feel like an a-hole. There are children in my OWN state, hungry and don't have adequate clothing for school.
Growing up, we went without some things {and by some "things" I mean exactly that stuff} but we always had a home, food and clothing. We just didn't always get all the extras our friends had and cool gadgets.

My daddio grew up not always knowing where his next meal would come from and so stories like these tug extra hard on my heart.

I have so much to be grateful for and it is so easy to forget it. I don't love my job but at least I have ONE and one that affords me the luxury to pay my bills, have tons of extras and spoil the Hell out of two very well taken care of dogs.

I've posted this year about similar feelings I have had, and how things have opened my eyes. Evidently they have not opened them enough or I wouldn't keep being so surprised when I read and/or see these things.

I think it's time I stopped reading about others struggles and helping where I {personally} can.

That's all I have for today.

XOXO,
Nichole

2 comments:

  1. I can totally relate - I get into funks quite a bit, and then I really think about it and realize that half of what I'm complaining about is really stupid...considering how much worse off other people are! It really does help to invest some time into others who do have it worse than you do - makes you appreciate your life a lot more! (Talking about myself here)

    :)

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  2. I am bummed to hear about your funk but it happens to all of us. I stopped blogging for 2 weeks my last funk. You're beautiful and have so many awesome things going for you and your family so stay positive girl! ;)
    I love that you're going to move forward thinking of how you can help others. You're a doll.
    xoxo

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