Monday, April 23, 2012

Job hunting blues

Happy Monday, ya'll. I feel like I haven't been a very good blogger lately. True, I have posted here and there but not a whole lot of substance posts....mainly because I've felt very blah. Remember about 2 1/2 months ago when I talked (oh, soooo ignorantly) about hoping to find a job in the events industry and saying I didn't want to settle for just any ol' office job like the past? Well, folks I'm putting my foot in my mouth.

Turns out, it isn't as easy as I was "assuming" it'd be. I have been lucky enough to work part time setting up some bea-utiful weddings and I feel pretty lucky to even get paid to help with such an event. BUT contrary to what some people believe, these aren't my designs, visions, or ideas. They are mostly, the lovely Emilee's and again I'm glad to be a part of it.

My severance package will expire soon and regardless of what I want, I do need a job. While I haven't gotten any call backs for jobs I WANT, I have gotten so many calls for jobs that I...don't.

Lots of insurance jobs. And I know most of us don't love our jobs so why should I be any different? The thing is, I didn't hate my last job. I just didn't love it, if that makes sense?

...HOWEVER

I hate being home all day, even more. I like change but I also crave some stability and routine. And as much as I love Gigi, being home all day long with a dog doesn't make for the best conversation. The first six weeks or so of my unemployment was actually great. I made lunch dates, went to the gym often, slept in...loved it.

Something has happened after our cruise. Vacay is officially over and I have nothing to look forward to. So I am home, and have become complacent. I don't want to be dramatic and say I'm depressed, but I'm not really me lately either. I don't have a huge desire to do much of anything while I'm at home. I'm desperate for a job just to have a purpose again. I never thought I'd say that but it's true. I just feel...here. That's not a great feeling for someone like myself who really enjoys being busy and having five hundred things going on at once.

I have a job interview today. I've heard mixed things about this office so I don't have high hopes for it. I had an interview last week for a medical trade school doing admissions. I was initially excited until I realized the job sounded more like a pushy sales job than helping people fulfill their dreams. It paid really generously but the position didn't sit well with me and I think the manager I met with could tell so, too.

So that's where I'm at. Needing a job to feel like a human being again. Wanting something in the events industry and not finding it. Worrying that I'll be unhappy.

Thanks for letting me vent out here on my little ol' blog. I think I needed it.

XOXO,
Nichole

10 comments:

  1. Good luck on the job hunt! =) I'm crossing my fingers you find something you love.

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  2. Good luck girl, I'm sure you will find something soon :-)

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  3. It is hard to find a job either that's in your field or one that you really enjoy doing, especially in this economy!

    One of my friends looked for a job for 8 eight months within her field and finally got a call this past Friday telling her she got it!!! I always told her, everything happens for a reason and you weren't meant to get those other jobs because it wasn't right for you and you will find one that works better for you in the near future. Now, she's happy with the job and where she's going! I'm sure the same thing will happen with you:) You will find a job you enjoy, but it just may take some time to get there and it will all work out in the end! Try to be patient and persistent and eventually something will come your way:)

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  4. Good luck! I am currently stuck at a job that I don't love but don't hate all the time. I've been at it for over 2.5 years but only because I am waiting on my boyfriend to get out of college (finally) so we can move away somewhere! It's fine for me now because I don't know what I want to be when I grow up anyway...and I'm 26.

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  5. Best of luck, Nichole! We've all been there. I wanted to teach so bad I could taste it. Now, I just kinda want to travel and play army wife. Unfortunately, my husband is now used to my paycheck :)
    There's nothing wrong with working one job and working toward your dream job at the same time!

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  6. Good Luck on the Job hunt! I think we are all human to feel complacent without a job or purpose and I feel that way too as USF has been such a big part of my life and now I do not know where I am going. I hope things turn out for you soon.

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  7. you'll find something when you least expect it! =] just be persistent and it will pay off.

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  8. Man do I know the feeling exactly! We moved to Georgia with the Army for 6 months for a school.... I thought I was going to go crazy! Best of luck to you, I'm about to start doing the same now that we're in a place for a few years.

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  9. Good luck with the search! I hope you find something soon and something you love!

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  10. Good lucky doodle! You will find a job you love, don't get discouraged!

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